Anxiety.. I really had no idea what it was until I started dealing with it about one year ago. I went to the emergency room for a racing heart that felt like it was going to beat out of my chest, heart palpitations and just not feeling right. I had lots of bloodwork done, and a EKG. Everything came back perfect, and I was discharged with an anxiety attack.
Fast forward to this year – 2017. It all started the same way.. went to the emergency room twice – two more EKG’s, and was told just a severe panic attack. Living with anxiety is probably one of the worst things I have ever dealt with. I would not wish it on my worst enemy. I constantly have thoughts going through my head.. Am I going to die? What if I’m really having a heart attack? What if something is wrong with my heart? Do I have cancer? Do I have a brain tumor? Just obsessed with my health.
Currently, I am on Lexapro 10mg daily and Ativan as needed. It is a great medicine most of the time – but I still have my anxious moments. Someday I hope that I can be anxiety free, but for now I just find the best ways to cope with it.
I had a Facebook friend share this picture recently, and it really spoke to me. I do not need to live my life like this.. I need to live in the moment and focus on today – not tomorrow, next week or next month. I want my children to remember me for all the fun awesome times we had.. Not me sitting around being lazy and upset constantly. When it is my time to die, I want to be proud of the life I lived and not regret anything. 🙂